maybe

So this maybe dumb or childish, but getting a text from Josh while he's at work asking for help with his lunch tomorrow, reading emails from school, from the parents thanking me or asking for prayer, and reading my facebook where my little brother put a really dumb (but fun and funny) quiz up makes me feel less alone. I know that technology is not the same thing as having the people there with you, but it sure is a blessing and a way for me to remember that I am not alone. I am so glad that I have people to love who love me back!

suck

I have a low fever. I've had a headache for two days and have spent the majority of them sleeping on my couch while the tv plays dumb movies. I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, but then I REALLY don't want to stay home alone again. I desperately want to move closer to my family so that I can go crash at their houses when I'm sick and Josh is not home. Right now I just want to sit and cry.

life lately

Not bad, not bad at all. Kathleen and I were supposed to go to Disneyland today, and I called her to let her know that I didn't have detention so I could meet her there earlier, and she walked out to her car to leave to meet me, and there was a man in her car! He totally was in the middle of breaking into her car! She knocked on the car window and started yelling at him, "What the f*ck are you doing?!!!" and then realized what he was doing and called 911, which was busy because of all the fires. So the guy got away, but she's safe and her car didn't get stolen. Praise God that I didn't have detention and called her early to hang out otherwise he would have been long gone with her car before she came out. She's going to come over and hang out at my house tonight.

School is going well. I still really am enjoying my job. It's just plain cool. I love my kids and enjoy them so much! One of them, who I'm working with after school a lot and helping out with her math, is really a puzzle to me. She understands the information in the moment, but really seems to have trouble storing it and retrieving it. I really wish that I knew more about brain chemistry and functions so that I could help her.

'Nother thing, while translating a passage from Spanish to English for my class, I realized that my brain recognizes all the parts of Spanish as Spanish and translates them, except for the nouns. More than 5 times in two pages I caught myself saying the Spanish noun ("rey" for example) instead of the English one ("king"). Interesting.

Next brain thing ... I think that I am at least slightly dyslexic. A few months ago I saw an ad for a fast food restaurant that I thought was called Chick-A-Fil. I've seen the name numerous times since and always thought that that was what it was called, "chick-a-fil" because that is what I saw every time. It wasn't until I went there last Saturday night with my lil bro and Christian went there and I was telling my honey that I went to "chick-a-fil" that he said that it's actually called, "Chick-fil-A" which makes a lot more sense phonetically. I looked carefully at the sign, and sure enough, "chick-fil-a" is how it is and has always been spelled. But even now, if I don't look carefully, I still see "chick-a-fil." My brain is twisted.

Josh is doing well. He had his day off today and slept a lot. He's going to work overtime tomorrow. They are really busy at work because of all the fires.

scary tampons

no really, they are. This last month I tried a different brand and guess what? They have positive motivational sayings on the wrapper of each. There's nothing like being in pain and feeling disgusting at 5 in the morning and blearily reading, "You're a take charge kind of girl!" "Go get'em!" "You're in control of your life!" "Nothing stops you!" scary. very very scary. And I sat there for far too long (because I was tired) thinking, "my tampon is lying to me." huh. Not often that that happens.

Work is going well enough. Both Josh and I are fighting off colds/allergies? and have been for the past few weeks. But over all, life is good and starting to settle down into something resembling a routine. Which is great! Just in time for me to start coaching next month and mess it all up again! ... ha.